Twas the Roll Before Christmas by shadeofsound, literature
Literature
Twas the Roll Before Christmas
'Twas the night before Christmas
And all through the land
The DM was plotting, playbook in hand
The players trudged on, completely unawares
Of the monsters still lurking, under nook and stairs
When out of the blue there arose sucha clatter;
The ranger's d20 was thrown and had struck the platter,
He shouted to his fellows, "I see hordes of undead!"
"Arise Cleric, Sorcerer, and Rogue your heads!"
"And through valor we may yet win this night;"
"Merry Christmas to all! And to all a good fight!"
I wonder if I should be concerned,
About my propensity for abuse,
How no matter how hard someone hits,
I can smile and shrug it off.
It never seems to me to be
That anyone can hit too hard for me;
I've always been hit harder, by another,
Sometime far before.
Even when I'm knocked down,
Or gashed and bleeding, bruised or burned,
I manage to find the strength to rise,
Onto my own two feet, and stand.
It's almost as if I wait,
With wicked grin and open hand,
Beckoning the plunging knife,
Because I know that I'll still stand.
I reach my hands out
Towards the heavens,
Grasping the impossible,
To hold it in my hand.
I reach my hands out
For the secrets of yore,
Of discoveries made long ago,
And now faded into lore.
I reach out, straining
To find my limits, containing
All the possibilities that can
Satisfy the urgings within me.
I reach out my mind,
Pushing it beyond the norm,
To find the wisdom to navigate
The waves of this creative storm.
I reach out my sight,
To seek what has been sought,
Becoming the one
To find what was lost.
I reach my hands out,
Despite the dangers,
To places unknown to me,
To circles that I am a stranger.
I reach out
It was over now, taking far too long a time to finish and done in time far too short. A final strike in a moment's weakness; a flash of bright steel spearing unprotected flesh. A sickening noise as blade tears skin and sinew, parting it to pierce the life beneath.
A hacking cough splits the ensuing silence.
Victim looks up at victor, blood seeping from between pain-clenched teeth.
The victim blinks at the darkness nibbling at his vision; how could he have lost? What was the flaw in his formiddable defense? Why did the other deserve the win?
It was unfair; it was too short - too short for the last time...
He grasped shakily at the single
The blade of my self has
Been withdrawn,
I lack interest in conflict,
Who can tell if this will go on?
I am afraid,
A rariety in my life,
Of the instincts inside me
That dominate in fight.
I wonder if they have left,
Or if they were ever really there,
Even if I should have them at all,
Of their use, should I beware?
It seems I have lost more
Than just passions or desire,
I have lost my will and drive,
And made embers of my fire.
Yet I know the coals are hot,
But my question does stand,
Should I stir the sparks again,
Or be silent, and stay my hand?
I'll tell you a tale,
About a fish
With a wish
To match each scale
That covered its body.
These scales were not ordinary,
That shimmered and shone,
Like diamond honed,
Indeed quite an extraordinary
Sight to behold.
But this one was not glad,
So he made a wish;
But with each wish
He lost a scale that he had
In return.
Soon this wishing fish was,
Glittering no more,
Shining no more,
Very embarrassed, because
He was, indeed,
Quite naked.
"Gather 'round!" He jovially said,
"I have a story to tell;
If you closely pay attention,
I won't have to yell.
"It is a tale of mystery,
A daring adventure,
It could be anything
My mind could forth venture.
"It is a tale of valor,
Of facing death without fear,
Of friendship bonds strong,
Of laughter and of fear.
"Of extravagant places
Far away in distant lands;
Of humble homes
Built with honest hands.
"Of the great men's deeds,
And the deeds that make great men;
The story has already started,
And to it I see no end.
"Though understand
This tale is not told by me;
Rather it tells itself,
Flowing far and free.
"This gr
Cold.
It's cold outside. The obvious thought travels through my head, eliciting a slight grin from my face, despite the biting air that seeps through my clothing. The clothes themselves offer little protection in this freezing weather, being only a pair of pants and a short sleeved shirt. A chuckle escapes my stiffened lips, reminding me that this is not my brightest fashion choice ever made. I could have done worse, however...
It's terribly cold, but I will myself to not tremble. There is no wind, no rain, no sleet, no hail. It is simply cold, calm, like the whole world has numbed and does not allow itself to feel the warmth of spring or t
A quiet night,
An open sky,
Sparkling stars,
The wind blowing by,
A blazing fire,
A circle of friends,
A bag of marshmellows,
And stories that never end,
From scary to funny,
Sad to happy,
To one's that make you think,
And the ones that make you smile,
Around the circle the stories go,
From big to little,
Tall tales to short stories,
Epic adventures to wonderous fantasies,
The stories wind on,
The fire dies down,
The marshmellows are gone,
And everyone lays down,
And look at the stars,
The wonderous glittering jewels,
That inspire fantastic stories,
And keep storytellers like me around.
Past, Present, Future,
all will come and go,
mountains to dust,
by Time's ruthless blow
Trials by Fire,
That you have passed
That were so difficult,
Now seem like wind through the grass...
Faded, too, are the
Good times that were had,
Only memories remain,
Their absences make you sad...
Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow,
It has been said,
That life's but a walking shadow,
With no hope for the end...
Twas the Roll Before Christmas by shadeofsound, literature
Literature
Twas the Roll Before Christmas
'Twas the night before Christmas
And all through the land
The DM was plotting, playbook in hand
The players trudged on, completely unawares
Of the monsters still lurking, under nook and stairs
When out of the blue there arose sucha clatter;
The ranger's d20 was thrown and had struck the platter,
He shouted to his fellows, "I see hordes of undead!"
"Arise Cleric, Sorcerer, and Rogue your heads!"
"And through valor we may yet win this night;"
"Merry Christmas to all! And to all a good fight!"
And so, thus the man,
A warrior, swords drawn,
Holds the blades of tempered steel,
High above his head.
All his fellows
See the sign of battle
And raise their voices
In a war cry.
They charge down the hill,
At the enemy with speed,
Spears and arrows fly
With such intensity that
The very sky turns dark,
The thunderous clashing
Of a thousand swords
Striking their prey.
The next day,
The sun rises blood red,
Revealing a valley,
Strewn with the dead.
The victors march on;
Weapons raised in triumph,
The valley of the shadows of death,
Was defeated, and passed.
When You Want and Can't Have by shadeofsound, literature
Literature
When You Want and Can't Have
I want to scream and fall apart,
Shake my seams loose and collapse,
To give up and never try anything again,
So I could waste away and never risk failing,
Because I never tried.
I want to tear myself apart,
Rend my soul into the open,
Rip this sack of meat asunder,
To see what makes me tick
So I know what's inside.
I am not anyone's to own,
Yet I want to belong.
It's confusing to me
Everything feels wrong.
I don't know what I should be,
Finding myself could possibly
Explain why
I feel so lost all the time.
Rain fell from the sky in torrents, pummeling the cobblestone street. Street lamps tried valiantly to pierce the darkness, but only succeeded in illuminating the passing droplets. Harrowing winds swept through the roadway, tossing around heaps of water as the passed. Yet there were those who would brave this fierceness with fires of their own...
Two men stood still despite the torrents about them, facing each other without falter. Both were tense, yet calm, as if the tempest around them was merely soothing background. Hands moved swiftly to scabbards, and the sound of three blades drawn tore the night. One man held two deadly blades; the oth
Welcome to the now.
Welcome to the status quo.
Welcome to the forced placations placed upon you.
Welcome to hypocrisy perpetuated.
Welcome to the fear of unknown.
Welcome to the fear of the known.
Welcome to your domesticated life.
Welcome to the puppet theater.
Welcome to the oppressive normality.
Have you ever noticed that applying the knowledge of chemistry and science that you have obtained is considered 'dangerous' to most 'normal' people? That anything that would make them wonder about the world outside of their own little bubble of going to work, going home, eating, sleeping and trying to get laid is considered 'wrong'? Did y
I wonder...
When will I become what I want to be?
What will I do when all is achieved?
Will I still have challenges to defeat?
A mountain to climb, reason to still cry
"Excelsior!"?
Will I grow old with a wife I adore, children I cherish,
And pass away peacefully, quietly, to Heaven?
Or will I earn my stripes on the fields of war,
Clashing in battle after battle, until, tattered and beaten,
I die alongside my comrades, fighting to be free?
Will I learn to love my life as it should be;
Not worldly, but as a gift from God to me?
Will I have an equal, my like mind,
My counterpart, my great find...
Someone to love me and to be love
It's not some secret
It's no mystery,
It's not fancy technique
Or hugging trees.
It's just me.
Here for all to behold.
My heart, my mind,
It's part of the tales I've told...
A little piece of me,
To look at every day,
Just a reminder of me,
When you're far away...
I've laid this all out.
None of it is held back, it's true.
You can print this out,
And take it everywhere, with you.
Just remember when,
You read this again,
That it's me you're reading,
My words, my thoughts...
A little piece of me.
Past, Present, Future,
all will come and go,
mountains to dust,
by Time's ruthless blow
Trials by Fire,
That you have passed
That were so difficult,
Now seem like wind through the grass...
Faded, too, are the
Good times that were had,
Only memories remain,
Their absences make you sad...
Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow,
It has been said,
That life's but a walking shadow,
With no hope for the end...
A quiet night,
An open sky,
Sparkling stars,
The wind blowing by,
A blazing fire,
A circle of friends,
A bag of marshmellows,
And stories that never end,
From scary to funny,
Sad to happy,
To one's that make you think,
And the ones that make you smile,
Around the circle the stories go,
From big to little,
Tall tales to short stories,
Epic adventures to wonderous fantasies,
The stories wind on,
The fire dies down,
The marshmellows are gone,
And everyone lays down,
And look at the stars,
The wonderous glittering jewels,
That inspire fantastic stories,
And keep storytellers like me around.
Cold.
It's cold outside. The obvious thought travels through my head, eliciting a slight grin from my face, despite the biting air that seeps through my clothing. The clothes themselves offer little protection in this freezing weather, being only a pair of pants and a short sleeved shirt. A chuckle escapes my stiffened lips, reminding me that this is not my brightest fashion choice ever made. I could have done worse, however...
It's terribly cold, but I will myself to not tremble. There is no wind, no rain, no sleet, no hail. It is simply cold, calm, like the whole world has numbed and does not allow itself to feel the warmth of spring or t
Current Residence: St. Louis Favourite genre of music: The kind I like (Random) Favourite style of art: Spacey Operating System: XP MP3 player of choice: My lungs and larynx... not always in tune, but no hard drive failures... Shell of choice: Help I'm in a nutshell! Skin of choice: Pale. Also been called translucent. Personal Quote: Think much, speak little, write less.
Favourite Movies
Serenity
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Straylight Run
Favourite Games
So many... hmm...
Favourite Gaming Platform
PC all the way.
Tools of the Trade
My spirit, mind and body. Everything else is extraneous.
So my last journal entry was awesome, because it got me to realize that I was alone and I needed to do something about it. So I went to the city's hackerspace Arch Reactor and met a whole bunch of people and started getting involved in making projects that people would come up with - suddenly I found myself feeling that old feeling again. I would say that it's probably borderline mania, but I enjoy every minute of it, because it feels like a warm summer night spent on a porch watching the sun set in the western sky, and just... right. Like meeting a dear friend you haven't seen in ages, yet never mourning the lost time between then and now. I
Less than you desiring to do it is prostitution. - Warning: Foul Language Used Strongly -
I've been bouncing this thought in my head for a good year now:
- Do what you want to DO, think what I want to think. Nothing will be denied me should I truly want it.
- I won't get anything I don't truly want: This goes for things I don't desire and things I half-desire, or think are cool or "neat"
- Don't fall for the trick of "commitments" that turn me against myself
- Don't allow the "type-cast" of something everyone else has categorized me into stop me from acting on my heart's desires.
I've been really out of sorts for years now, wondering w
Just decided that I had let the previous journal entry languish on my page for a little too long.
Well, I'm trying to get back into writing and reading more, and I'm experiencing mixed successes. Like here, for instance. I have a few other blogs and writing accounts that I've used before which I won't state here, so I can try to get back into the swing of typing a lot about things that may or may not matter to the world at large.
In case you tl;dr'd on me: I'm writing more lately, so stay tuned.